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"It feels good to think about you when I’m warm in bed. I feel as if you’re curled up there beside..."

Mon, 20 May 2013 10:46:19 -0400

“It feels good to think about you when I’m warm in bed. I feel as if you’re curled up there beside me, fast asleep. And I think how great it would be if it were true.”

- Haruki Murakami (via colporteur)

I like the side of me that stops me from being passive aggressive.

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:10:40 -0400

I like the side of me that stops me from being passive aggressive.

第十届桃李杯—古典舞金奖—《点绛唇》

Wed, 15 May 2013 01:29:04 -0400

第十届桃李杯—古典舞金奖—《点绛唇》

toniiu: As each situation in life represents a challenge to man and presents a problem for him to...

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:06:07 -0400

toniiu:

As each situation in life represents a challenge to man and presents a problem for him to solve, the question of the meaning of life may actually be reversed. Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather he must recognize that it is he who is asked. In a word, each man is questioned by life; and he can only answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible.

—Viktor Frankl, Man’s Search for Meaning

I went to the Blue Room to get an iced coffee. The worker asked, “Room for milk?” I...

Tue, 14 May 2013 23:59:00 -0400

I went to the Blue Room to get an iced coffee.
The worker asked, “Room for milk?”
I said, “No.”
He gave me room for milk.

mlia

miscellaneous thoughts from gate 64A

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:43:21 -0400

whynicolek:

so this is what life is,

a series of disappointments, successes, failures, accomplishments—love, love lost, love rekindled, and even love abandoned

Little things like overloading a semester,

challenging yourself, and learning to have faith in your own ability to rise to the occasion.

Bigger things like going back to something that’s already broken

to leave with the understanding and perspective that sometimes,

letting go is the most difficult and most painful, yet bravest thing to do.

And truly monumental things like growing enough to look at your family—your parents—as people

not as role models, breadwinners, nuisances, or the basis of whatever problems you may face,

but as people: jaded, broken, human beings trying just as hard as you to carry their faults, their mistakes along with the burden of your dreams and desires until their backs are so haunched from the weight of responsibility that they can only see the ground and how far they still have to go, instead of how far they’ve already come

to learn that with this understanding comes a sense of maturity and compassion that can’t be taught in any book or bedtime story.

so this is what it comes down to

learning to love and let someone in

only to realize when to let go

and learn to love yourself

soniafeliz: I traveled for one month around California and I...

Mon, 13 May 2013 03:14:08 -0400

soniafeliz:

I traveled for one month around California and I swear I saw the most breathtaking landscapes. It was a great experience to explorer new places, to try the local food and to meet new people. I got lucky enough to grab a few stills and I’m still working on a video.

Don’t tell me your state is more beautiful than this because I’ll never believe you.

how to be a friend

Sun, 12 May 2013 20:00:45 -0400

cavaan:

much of life is trying to make sense of life. we do that through attempting to express our experiences and then evaluating it to see whether they ring true. we normally need another person to hear our attempt so that we can hear it ourselves. often we don’t ask for a problem solver, because we need a listener, one who lets the other friend tell the story, and have the imagination to be with them in it.

"i. i was twelve years old when our next door neighbor noticed the way my right shoulder blade stuck..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 02:54:39 -0400

“

i.
i was twelve years old when our next door neighbor
noticed the way my right shoulder blade
stuck out more than the other, like asymmetrical
mountains on the landscape
of my adolescent back, as if an earthquake
had taken place between my bones and no one
had bothered to clean up the rubble.
i was crooked.

ii.
i was fourteen years old when the doctor
sliced me open from the base of my neck
to the small of my back like a zipper to reveal my twisted
spine, stretched out my vertebrae
with titanium rods and screwed them in place –
straightened me up, so to speak, but
i came out of the operating room still feeling crooked.

iii.
i was sixteen years old the first time you ran your fingers
down my scar, told me how
beautifully they had put me back together
and for once, i was okay
with being crooked.

iv.
it’s hard to love crooked things and crooked people
with crooked backs and crooked teeth and
crooked souls, but un-crooked you taught me how
and i loved you with all my crooked heart.

”

- “scoliosis”, Kim Visda (via colporteur)

apatheticghost: what i learned from school im a fucking piece of shit everybody else is also a...

Sun, 12 May 2013 01:40:16 -0400

apatheticghost:

what i learned from school

im a fucking piece of shit

everybody else is also a fucking piece of shit

mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell

Young the Giant — Cough Syrup

Sat, 11 May 2013 15:28:09 -0400

Young the Giant — Cough Syrup

polaroidsf: Did you guys know we have a poster? Our ‘Instant...

Fri, 10 May 2013 00:26:07 -0400

polaroidsf:

Did you guys know we have a poster? Our ‘Instant Streets’ series captures San Francisco’s most iconic streets and neighborhoods in glorious double exposure Polaroids. We collected 24 of our best and put them on this handsome poster. Want one of your own? We have them for sale in our Etsy shop. And for the rest of the week we’re offering free standard shipping in the US. Thanks for looking!

!!!

03:23

Wed, 08 May 2013 03:23:20 -0400

Maybe I’ve just been sleeping too much lately but it’s hard to fall asleep these days even when I’m tired. There are 10 days left until the end of the school year so maybe I’m just trying to be awake for as many of these last 240 hours as possible. That maybe just having my eyes open, my mind conscious, will allow me to take home (wherever that might be now) with me the essence of being in an environment where I have more often than not questioned myself and failed and learned not to accept that as the final resolution.

It’s a strange feeling to stand on the terrace and realize that I’ll never watch the sunrise from the recycling room on lonesome early mornings, hungry for sleep but full of love for the struggle. No more turning up the heat (even when it’s 65 outside) to emulate the toasty California warmth when Midori’s not in either. Goodbye to late-night Gate runs (literal and metaphorical) and napping underneath the lounge tables at 4AM. In less than two weeks, all this will be gone and I’ll be on another continent in a different time.

To leave home for home. I said a couple of days ago, Providence will never be home. As a city, it’s never lived up to my wants and needs but it’s true: home is where the heart is and my heart beats with both the warmth of the sun at Bellano and the warmth of the sun at Prospect, the coffee talks and holiday bashes with DDD and the sometimes late-night, sometimes drunken, sometimes both conversations with the OBA girls and walks with cats and walks in Andrews. Split into two, I’ll forever be dreaming about the opposite coast.

Maybe this isn’t the time to be sentimental and reflective but it’s hard to ignore the end of freshman year and the gnawing and sobering sadness I feel every morning I wake up.

US News High School Rankings came out a day or two ago for 2013. Sometimes the lineup can be...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 22:57:54 -0400

US News High School Rankings came out a day or two ago for 2013. Sometimes the lineup can be absolute bullshit, but it’s fun to randomly search around and check out schools. Except now I feel distressed because people from TJ are actually genius?!?! The average number of AP tests people take there is 7.2!??!?! Shawn took 10?!?!!?

*crawls under the carpet of shame*

"A. If you do not accomplish the goals you had when you were sixteen you will be troubled the rest..."

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 12:03:51 -0400

“

A.
If you do not accomplish the goals
you had when you were sixteen
you will be troubled the rest of your life
and will inevitably replace them with new goals
that are less fun and involve
a fear of failure.

B.
The best conversations
you will ever have
will happen
on a front porch
just before dawn.

You will be wearing your socks
cut off shorts
and wondering if you should
hold out for breakfast.

C.
The two best ways to die
are laughing
and in battle.

”

- “A Path” by Dallas Clayton (via colporteur.)

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Heads Will Roll (A-Trak Remix) Just a little...

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 01:51:00 -0400

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Heads Will Roll (A-Trak Remix)

Just a little bit of post-concert withdrawal symptoms right now. A-Trak made this hellish week worth every bit of its basicity. As generic as this remix is, it is damn good.

A-Trak - Disco Nap (ft. Oliver) Best off the EP although...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 01:50:26 -0400

A-Trak - Disco Nap (ft. Oliver)

Best off the EP although “Tuna Melt” comes at a close second. The Funkin’ Matt remix and “Landlines 2.0” are jammin’ off the remix album.

Today’s forecast: cloudy with a 100% chance of shit on your face. This week is actually being...

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:53:32 -0400

Today’s forecast: cloudy with a 100% chance of shit on your face.

This week is actually being so basic to me right now and I just can’t anymore. Let me break it down for y’all:

Friday: Thursday, I decided to pull an allnighter to catch up on a week’s worth of orgo. Since I was up the whole night, I decided to go to orgo but I fell asleep anyway because I was still lost. Went to bio and fell asleep. Jenzel and Ho took pictures of me sleeping instead of waking me up. I went to the first show of Pirates half dead. Unfortunately, by that time I was too dead for the cast party so I went back to my dorm and slept. (Exciting life of Iris.)
Saturday: I woke up at around 11 and didn’t crawl out of bed until call time at 1:30ish. The Saturday matinee went well and I came back to my dorm, ready to bust out a few pages of my paper but instead went on Facebook and Tumblr and suddenly it was 6:00 and call time for the evening show?!?! I decided to head to the cast party (unreasonably) late even though I had shitloads to do. Ended up sleeping at 4:00AM.
Sunday: Literally slid out of bed 15 minutes before the call time and speed showered and ran to Alumnae for the last show. The show was just continual yawning—the only times I didn’t yawn were when I was munching on Mike’s M&Ms and playing. ADOCH began and there went a good 5 hours of my life. I somehow finished bio homework and finalized the housing list for the lottery on Tuesday. I tried to pull another all-nighter because the paper was still unfinished but I fell asleep around 4:30AM.
Monday: I set my alarm for 6AM because I was only going to nap, but I ended up waking up at 7:30 to buy Spring Weekend tickets. I literally closed my eyes for 5 seconds and when I opened them again, it was suddenly 7:49AM. The only that worked out this weekend was the ticketing process and now I am officially going to see A-Trak this Friday!!! I finished my paper at 12:37PM and rushed to start/finish the Powerpoint due at 1:00PM. That somehow worked out and the meeting about the Powerpoint went 100000x better than I thought it would. I hadn’t had food since 1AM so I ran around buying food and printing the paper I finished in the morning. I ran back to Pembroke to volunteer for ADOCH and then ran back to the greenhouse for class. Exhausting. Showered and went to Kabob & Curry with Shawn and now I am back to work.

BUT WAIT, this shittiness is nowhere near finished:

Tuesday: Last day of cramming for the bio midterm. Math HW due (I am doing that now). Bio lab. ADOCH ends (and I feel bad for not taking Jackie around to all the awesome places on/around campus. :c FORGIVE ME, GIRL. IF YOU DECIDE TO COME HERE NEXT YEAR I WILL TAKE YOU TO ALL THE PLACES). Housing lottery.
Wednesday: Bio midterm. Math quizz.
Thursday: Course registration at 8AM. Orgo lab report/pre-lab due.
Friday: Soc presentation due.

Things to look forward to:

A-Trak.
Spring Weekend.
4/20.

BASICally (ha ha get it), I am bottom bitching right now.

Tomorrow is the housing lottery and to prepare for this stressful night Richelle sent me the...

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:30:32 -0400

Tomorrow is the housing lottery and to prepare for this stressful night Richelle sent me the following message via Facebook:

http://www.youwall.com/papel/big_house_wallpaper_e8f85.jpg

http://www.freemathhelp.com/images/lessons/graph4.gif

think small numbers and good real estate

*prays to the housing god(s)*

Photo

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 04:07:34 -0400